4.16.2011

completely broken

Friends, I don't even know how we had the strength to walk back to our room, but we feel God's mighty strength in the midst of our weakness. This morning has been the biggest set-back yet. Since 630 this morning, we have begged and pleaded with our God to perform a miracle. We faced many hard decisions and were told right away that there was no hope. They hoped Pierce would make it long enough for us to get to the NICU (our room is about 3 minutes away). They hoped he'd be alive long enough for us to hold him. The staff had pretty much given up. There is no way to describe the feeling of helpless that you have as you are being told that there is no more hope. I wish I could say that I trusted all of the trite Christian things that I so often seem to carry with me, but in that moment, I didn't. Christ brought us to a point of humility today where we learned that regardless of how little/big our faith is, He is the only sovereign, all-powerful one. Not us. Not the doctors. Before making our decision to hold little Pierce (this seemed like giving up to us), our doctor told us that outside of a miracle there was nothing more. No more options. Nothing. So we got him out, held him and grieved. But we couldn't stop praying that God would grant him more time with us. I prayed that if God was going to take him, that he would not let him linger or suffer. We expected eminent death.  BUT our God is gracious. And Pierce is still with us. He is, in fact, doing better. While we were holding him, his potassium dropped (went from around 10 to 8), his glucose rose (he needed a higher glucose reading to receive insulin to help with the potassium) and he seemed content. We held him for what seemed like a few seconds (of course it wasn't long enough) and over the course of the last few hours, we have held a constant vigil by his side. We see God working. He did not take Pierce this morning. For that, we are so grateful. We ask for a few steps forward this afternoon and tomorrow. At this point, what seemed like a locked situation, medically speaking, has now opened up and we have about 3 different things to try. It is so complicated to explain all of the minute medical details, but Nik and I have been amazed at how this NICU staff has treated our son. Pray for them. Pray for their wisdom. Pray for us. Pray we make the right decisions. And pray most importantly, for Pierce. We are so heartbroken right now, and we are just abiding in Christ as He is our only hope.

Love,
Lindsay

15 comments:

  1. Keep fighting Pierce and we will keep praying!

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  2. Lindsay, I have had the computer with me all morning. I am so happy that you were able to hold Pierce. You and Nik are so amazing. I am so sorry that you are going through this right now. I have been praying, praying and praying for your miracle. God is what we all need. I love you,

    Dian

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  3. Baby Pierce,

    Life must seem pretty crazy right now, all of these doctors and nurses and eyes huddled around you. But as things look crazy, just know that there are many people praying for you. Your mom and dad love you so very much. I dont know you or your family but through connections and friends I am able to read and look into your little life and the strength of your parents. Pierce, your mother and father absolutely adore you. You have been the blessing of their life and as you struggle just in the past few days, your mother and father have struggled too. They have rejoiced every little beep of the heart monitor for their baby boy. Baby Pierce, may the Lord give you his strength and power and uplift you and your heart, lungs, kidneys and your potassium levels. May God touch your parents LIndsay and Nik as they feel every little prick you get and feel every ounce of your pain. You are a strong little boy Pierce. The world is an amazing place. May the Lord hold the Franks family dear at this time and never give up, despite what Doctors or technitians may say, God is not bound by our laws of medicine and biology.

    Praise the Lord in all of this time of rejoice and suffereing.

    with love,

    Jessica Rogers

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  4. Lindsay I am praying for your family! Pierce is so precious. We're praying for a miracle.

    Jessi Spring
    www.someassemblyrequired1.wordpress.com

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  5. i am so glad that you were able to hold your precious baby, and i prayed that your touch would help him stabilize. i love you guys and am continuing to pray for you all.

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  6. You don't know me, but I am praying. For him, for all you you, and for the medical personnel. No matter which way this goes, praying that you will know that Christ is enough. Hope does not disappoint because God has poured out His love in us through the Holy Spirit. Romans 5:5. And so we keep on hoping in Him.

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  7. Isn't it amazing how babies are able to react to their mama's love and warmth?!?!? Ya'll are doing a fantastic job, loving you son and each other so well. We'll pray for continued endurance, peace and healing!!!!
    Katherine

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  8. Lindsay,
    Me and my family have been praying for you, Nik, and sweet baby Pierce. I pray that God will continue to give you guys strength and peace throughout this difficult time.

    Ashton Reagin

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  9. Lindsay,
    I haven't seen you since you got married, but my daughter, Allison, and Hallie were BFFs. Dian has been so kind to keep us informed about you, Nik, and that sweet baby of yours. Prayers are happening here in Germany for your family and the doctors. Remember that God IS with all of you.
    With love and grace,
    Erin Guidici

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  10. Lord Jesus Christ, Good Shepherd of the sheep, you gather the lambs in your arms and carry them in your bosom: We commend to your loving care Pierce. Relieve his pain, guard him from all danger, restore to him your gifts of gladness and strength, and raise him up to a life of service to you. Hear us, we pray, for your dear Name’s sake. Amen.
    From the Book of Common Prayer

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  11. Nik, Lindsay, and Baby Pierce; the Tjelta Family is with you in prayer. We love you all and are praying for you many times a day and even in the middle of the night. Really, words fail me--but I do want to thank you for opening your life up and inviting us in. We are blessed and honored to lift you in prayer and to come around you with love and care.

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  12. We love you dearly, sweet sister & brother in Christ. My heart aches for you...God sent the most glorious weather today & I can't help but inhale the breeze and be optimistic for your little one. THE great Physician was cradling you as you held Pierce this morning and will always!!!

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  13. I don't know you, but I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for your family and the precious gift that God has given you.

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  14. We have been there. Our son was born at 23 wk, 2 days. Please, please email me if you have any questions. Keep holding on! I am praying, praying, praying.

    jessi.bennion@gmail.com

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  15. I do not know you -- our prayers our with you. Came across your story via facebook. Every minute your little guy fights just proves how great the miracle of life is. I work at a level 3 NICU hospital and often have hands on with this amazing babies. I have witnessed the miracles God grants these families. Pierce has made a difference in this world no matter how long or short his time here.

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