Today marks 3-weeks since we have begun this journey. There have been many dark, dark moments, and there have been many joyous ones as well. As one friend put it, "It is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows." (Her son was also a 23-weeker.) There is really no way to describe the rollercoaster of emotions to someone who has never been here.
I won't lie, we are definitely feeling the toll and burden of running this marathon. We try to resume "normal" life activities , but it isn't the same. Every hour we wrestle with so many conflicting feelings about leaving our son in the NICU. But we continue to trust in God. To trust that He is good. That He has chosen this difficult time for us and that He will see all 3 of us through it.
Last night Pierce had a more difficult night filled with plenty of desats and bradys. They ordered a chest x-ray this morning (routine) and that should give us an idea of where his lungs are at in terms of whether or not they are getting better, worse, same, etc. Please pray for healing for our son and that today will bring good news, and not bad. Pray that he will make strides in terms of recovery. Pray for his nurse, Melissa as I'm sure she has her work cut out for her today. Also pray that God will continue to grant Nik and I a peace that surpasses all understanding. That we may go through this dark, scary time knowing that God is with us and in control.
Lindsay, Nik and Pierce